She's going to be a soccer player

This baby just won't stop kicking. Last night John thinks he felt the baby move for the first time - it was faint, but he thinks he felt something. She was kicking up a storm up near my ribs (ouch!) and more than the flutters I feel all day, these felt like real kicks! You could actually see a few of them, which is really unbelievable. I think she was really excited about Siena's AMAZING win last night in double OT! They certainly had mom on their side to pull off a win like that. One of the best college games I've ever witnessed - mom would have loved it!

Update on the baby's room: We're not painting this weekend because the paint samples we got were not the right ones. We ended up having to order them on the internet. Once we get them we can order the paint and get the room started. We're still not sure what color we're painting the room. The furniture is dark brown and the bedding is light pink with brown accents. We're thinking about doing a neutral color and accenting the room with a large pink horizontal stripe with a smaller brown stripe on either side. It's kind of hard to visualize, but if I can find a picture I'll post it. Let me know if anyone has any good ideas. You can see the bedding at our other registry on www.rhbabyandchild.com

21 Week Picture

Here I am at 21 weeks pregnant. Things are still tough, but I'm grateful that I feel physically good and my baby is healthy. Right now she weighs 1 pound and is using all of her pound to kick me! She moves all the time and like I said before, she definitely moves more when I'm hungry. It's like she's saying "Hey mom, eat something. I'm starving." Feeling her move is just so amazing and knowing that it's a little girl in there kicking away is so cool. I really feel like I'm getting to know her already. She's already a lot like me. We both get irritable when we're hungry.

We're making progress on the baby's room. Well, we haven't actually started, but we are finalizing paint colors this week and the new guest room is almost done. John did a fabulous job turning our armoire into a desk - it's awesome. Pictures coming soon. We should be able to start the baby's room this weekend. We did finally get out and start our registry. Primarily we're registered at Babies R Us, but we've also registered for our bedding and a few items at Restoration Hardware www.rhbabyandchild.com.

Here SHE is!

Here she is - our little girl. We love the third picture which we are calling her American Idol picture - she's singing already. In the last picture you can see that she is sucking her thumb. Amazing, just totally amazing.

It was an amazing day among so many sad days. It was devastating to not be able to call my mom on the way out of the doctors office like I normally would have. I know she would be so happy to hear that we're having a little girl. It's really hard to do this without her, but I'm so very grateful to have so much support and enthusiasm from my family and friends. I hope this little one knows how important she already is to so many people. It's all just so hard and I only hope I can teach this baby what a great "Grammy" she had. It hurts so much to know that she'll never get to meet her.

On a positive note, I did start to feel the baby move last week, which is amazing. It started just when my mom told me it would - 20 weeks. I like to think Peg had something to do with that. And now she is moving all the time - especially when I'm hungry. I think it's her way of making sure I'm eating enough.

Sad

This was not an easy week for me and Baby O and it's not getting any easier. I can't believe shes gone and that she won't ever meet this baby. More specifically - I will never get to see her meet this baby. As well intentioned as people are when they say that she is with us and she will see the baby, it doesn't make it any better. I want her to be here. I want her to be with me. I miss her so much. I hate that I can't call her. I hate that we are no longer making plans for when she will come down to stay with me after the baby is born. What do I do without my mother? How will I make it through? I just don't believe it. It can't be true.

There are just not enough words. It feels as if nothing will be normal again.

Posting a comment

A few people have asked me how to post a comment to this blog. So, I thought I would post the instructions to make things a little easier. Here goes:
1) Click on Comment under the post you want to comment on.
2) Type your comment. Where it says Comment as select Name/URL. In the Name box type in your name (first name, first and last name, first name last initial, whatever you want). You don't need to type anything in the URL box. Click Continue.
3) Click Post Comment. Do the word verification step (just type the letters shown) and that's it.

Simple and easy. I hope this helps.

19 Week Picture

Here I am at 19 weeks. I can't believe I'm almost halfway through. Sometimes it still doesn't even feel real. I'm still not feeling any movement, which is frustrating. I do know that the bug is moving because I heard it at my last appointment, but no feelings yet. I haven't fainted since my last episode over a week ago, which is a relief.

The countdown is on to the BIG ultrasound! One week from today we will know if we are on team pink or team blue. I hope you've voted in the poll. We'll see if all those "girl" voters are right. The other big news for the week is that we've started working on the nursery. Actually we're setting up the new guest room/office first (formerly the office), then when that is done we'll move everything out of the nursery and start working on that. Of course we're waiting to find out the gender before we decide on the decor. Coming Soon...room renovation pics.

Baby's first toy

We got a new car! We had been looking at cars for about 3 weeks, then last week on a whim we decided to stop in to a Mazda dealership and take a look. John has liked the Mazda5 since he first saw one and dragged me to look at it. I was feeling a bit tired, hungry, and pregnant so I wasn't really in the mood to look at yet another car! Then the salesman came over and I felt like looking at cars even less. But after a test drive and some negotiations (all done by me - don't think I'm a pushover just because I'm small. I'm little and tough!) we found ourselves purchasing a brand new 2009 Mazda5.

It's terrific. It comfortably seats 6 people, the third row seats fold down to make a huge cargo space, it drives great (more like a car than an SUV), and it's a really cool looking little car/crossover vehicle. It will be perfect for Baby O. Oh and it is NOT a minivan! Plus it's black with black interior - very slick, or sharp as Grampa Cairns would say. Willa and Nico have not gone for a ride in the new car yet.