Happy Mother's Day

Happy Mother's day to all the moms out there. It's a tough day for this mom-to-be. It's nice to be celebrating my "first" mother's day and to think that this time next year I will be celebrating with our daughter. Unfortunately that is overshadowed by one very significant absence. It's hard to describe what it's like not to have my mother to call and say "Happy Mother's Day" or send a (late) card to. But the truth is I miss her like this every day, Mother's Day or not. Today it just happens to be right there in my face. We celebrated in our own way, but it's just not the same without her. It's still hard for me to even believe she is gone.

All of this is made even more difficult by the circumstances surrounding the start of my very first mother's day. My day started out in the Labor and Delivery department of our hospital. I called my doctor for a small amount of bleeding on Saturday evening and she sent me to the hospital to get checked out. It turns out I was having some pretty regular Braxton Hicks contractions. They were not painful, as a matter of fact I couldn't feel them at all. The concern was the frequency and regularity of the contractions. So after a lot of fluids and a quick shot to stop the contractions I was released from the hospital at about 12:30 am on Mother's Day. I was relieved and glad to go home and go to sleep (and see my dogs!). It's times like these that I wish I could call my mom. She would have know exactly what to say to put me at ease before I even called my doctor. I miss her so much. Happy Mother's Day mom!