I've been thinking

Not that this is something new, but I've been thinking about my mom a lot. I just can't help but wonder what advice she would have given me at this point; how she would feel right now on the verge of seeing her baby have a baby; what would her face look like as she held my daughter, her 20th grandchild. It's harder than I ever could have known to not have her here, particularly right now. This feeling of loss doesn't get any better or any easier. I still shake my head at least once a day because I really just can't believe she isn't here and that she won't be here when my little girl arrives.

I love you Mom and I miss you so much.